Just Do It!
A journal written January 23rd, 3 weeks into wearing a head covering in public:
I have really been struggling with this conviction and have been wavering in my feelings on the matter. The Lord keeps encouraging me along the way, but it’s still hard. I feel like a part of me is dying. I am dying. I am dying to self little by little so that He may be glorified. I have been suffering heart clenching fear for days. I have been avoiding leaving the house for three days because I don’t want someone to see me like this. What will they think? Who will they tell? I’ll be forever known as the woman with the head covering. There is no way to blend in with a covering. It’s just plain obvious no matter what you do. So, I just need to face this giant. Just put it on, trust the Lord, pray, pray, pray, smile, smile, smile, and go, go, go. So, today I went to the park, gymnastics, grocery shopping and all around town. What did people think? I don’t know. But, I do know that the Bible says in Proverbs 29:25 “The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.” So, I don’t want to fear man. The devil loves to fill us with fear. He likes to point out what we should be afraid of if we obey God. But, what should we fear if we don’t obey God? I would rather fear the Lord than man. So, I must choose to go on trusting in the Lord on this matter. My friends haven’t said anything. I don’t know what they think. But, it doesn’t matter. What matters is that I obey the Lord. The Lord has impressed on me today that there will be fruit as a result of obeying the Lord. I made it through the day. And, my heart is more at peace. Thankfully, I am finding there are other women out there with similar testimonies. The Lord just hit them over the head with a covering conviction and they obeyed.
Wendy
Posted: February 2nd, 2009 under Head Covering, Testimony.
Comment from RH
Time February 23, 2009 at 3:24 pm
So, I was totally encouraged by this posting. I had struggled with the topic of headcovering for over a year before I finally gave in and started covering last week. Some of my friends think I’m crazy while others are encouraged to see how I followed through with a conviction. Like you, I was scared about what people would say, but I realized that the Lord will give me words to answer any questions.